Sunday, September 21, 2008

Why I No Longer Believe.

When I was growing up, it was all a lot easier. You kinda just followed the adults that were in your life. They "created" the way things were. No reason to ask questions. No reason to rock the boat. Nothing to question.

It became a pattern. It was a part of life on such a daily basis that I never really thought much about it. Day in, day out, it was almost like breathing or eating. Something you just do, not something to think about or analyze.

Then in youth group age even, I became blindly optimistic. I actually DID think about it, and still it made sense. Made sense to the point where I became passionate about it. I got to the point where I thought I knew what I was talking about. I told other people how THEY should think. I told my perspective and my thoughts simply because I couldn't understand why anyone would ever think/believe differently. My youth pastor had given me a Wednesday night to speak to the group, and it was part of my entire message that night. Looking back, I'm sorry for those I neglected to love.

Then I went to college. It seemed to be a "free for all" there. Sure, you'd meet some people who would back up your beliefs, but over-all...who knew what anyone actually lived by. People in college just want you to know how cool they are without trying to be cool. How trendy or hip they are. There are some that would deny any belief in it just because belief of this type was thought to be "childish" or "unnecessary".

Then I graduated college...and entered the "adult" world. The world where it seemed to matter less and less on a regular basis. Once in a while it would still come up. I'm a youth pastor, so you can imagine it would come up sometimes. But overall, on the regular grocery shopping, mall walking, movie watching kinda days...nothing.

Then I became a father. I looked forward to sharing this with my family. To talk with my daughters as they continued to grow and develop an understanding of the world around them. But recently something changed. Something has happened. I have a 2 year old.

I no longer believe that toilet paper has to face towards you, coming up from closest to the wall. Because when you do this, 2 year olds can just swat the heck out of it, making the toilet paper spool completely onto the floor.

I guess it's okay to turn the roll around. Sigh.

5 comments:

Nintennuendo said...

Where the hell did toilet paper come into this story?

I mean.. seriously, what?

P.S. my word verification is gnrmnagh. That is not a word

Hugo said...

So? are you gonna tell your daughter that it is okay to question what her parents teach her?
Are you gonna tell her that it is ok to live her life without belief?
And show her that it is possible for her to enjoy life without belief.
You are on the right path, question everything, look at what the added value is of belief, do you really need it to enjoy life, do you need it at all, does anyone really need it, and perhaps even more important what are the negative aspects ...
Have a good day and enjoy your daughter (who's still an atheist until you make the decision to start the indoctrination)

pastorwick said...

hehe, figured once it hit the atheist blogosphere, I'd get at least one comment like this.

My wife and I will raise our daughter to think for herself, and discover things, and to have faith and love.

Not gonna have a debate here, but thanks for posting. :)

Hugo said...

What's wrong with my comment?

I hope you do allow your daughter to think for herself and love her no matter what choice she makes regarding belief, if not she can be another one of those story of how religion creates divisions among people.

Good luck.

Richard Wade said...

LOL! Wick, thanks for a great laugh. I actually have been in a decades-long, tongue-in-cheek “conflict” with my childhood friend over the proper direction of toilet paper unrolling, a highly charged and contentious issue. I have always been an over-the-top person (in a variety of ways) but this is the first time I have ever heard a credible argument for down-from-the-back installation. Thank you for opening my eyes to see the other side. I feel my mind and heart have been expanded, ready for new possibilities.

HOWEVER as soon as your two-year-old can be broken of that annoying habit, turn the roll around! After all you don’t want your kids to grow up, well, you know…